Day 215- What.A.Day.

If I am being real on this blog, this day has sucked.  I am an emotional mess.  My sweet son got sick again, very random, and seems fine now, but as always with my Landry boy I worry so much when he is sick, especially now that we are finding out all of these allergies he now has.  However, I am thankful that tonight he is feeling better, praying, praying, he stays healthy.  As I mentioned a few blogs back, I haven't felt good in months, the fatigue and other issues have gotten progressively worse and has sent me to the doctors this week.  Some of the news I found out today sent me into a mess, but I only found out parts of what is going on and will find out more next week.  Of course I find things out today when my son is sick, my husband is out of town, and today is a day where I do not feel good at all.  You ever have those moments where you literally just walk out to your car and cry? Yeah that was me today.  Today was a day that I wish I had a mom to call and ask her to come over and just be with me.  Today was a day where I wish I could have called a friend to come and cry with me, tell me this sucks, eat take out, perhaps watch a chick flick, and then tell me everything will be okay.  Today I wanted to just be hugged from my husband and hear him tell me it will be okay.  I could not do any of the above, which left me feeling pretty lonely.  I had to settle for a phone call to my husband and a friend, which helped a little, but not a lot.
I am not writing this for pitty or to wear my emotions on my sleeve, because even if you know me in the slightest, knows I am definitely not one to get emotional in front of people (which by the way, yeah I did at work today in front of co-workers, embarrassing), I am not one to ask for help or prayer for myself, or to tell the world that my life sucks.  I am writing to say that in the midst of this horrible, emotional melt-down day, I am still thankful.  I am thankful I am seeking the answers to my health issues and will hopefully get it all figured out.  I am thankful for my sweet daughter who is trying so hard to understand why I am extremely tired all of the time and irritable some days.  I am thankful that I have a God who comforts, heals, and loves me in the midst of my emotional messes.